Something to do, to love, to hope for.
Saturday, September 12, 2009 6:33 PM /
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People who say that life is not worthwhile are really saying that they themselves have no personal goals which are worthwhile. Get yourself a goal worth working for. Better still, get yourself a project. Always have something ahead of you to look forward to...to work for and hope for.
Things don't go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be.
OH the ndp cert !
6:07 PM /
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I got a dream last nightttt..
A super super unexpected dream..
I dreamt of _________._____ came to talk to me and apologises..._____ said alot of thingss..Was quite nice and sincere.Thats all.. I cant remember the rest.Now ____ & I don't talk anymore..I don't know, just don't feel like talking to _____.I find ________ a liar?I somehow felt betrayed by _______.Although we said that we would be friends.Hmms probably mx can guess this person?I kind of miss the person crapping talks.Anyway school is starting tmrw..
What! EOY is starting =x
rawrs.
I have yet to study.
I need motivations..
JIAYOUS bahs (:
PR0MOTI0N DAY !~
5:47 PM /
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My NDP uniform .. The lanyard + rank is not mine.
We wore it to look more prestige?
Hhaas (:
My now uniform (:
Love the so many badges!
My Previous uniform .. (:
PROMOTION DAY was nicenice I still remembered.
The saluting to the seniors was wayyyy cool (
SHORT POST (:
Friday, September 11, 2009 5:47 AM /
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LOL, a random pic from my phone ...
Today was very much a restless day.
The weather says it so.
Studied science in the morning.
Met Jasmine up @ CP..
ate lunch..
A dessert treat from her.
Sweetsweet (:
Walkwalk..
then we went for tuition..
After tuition,
was really bored-ed, wanted to watch movie..
But Jas lor!
Haven finish mr yee 7 stacks of worksheetsss..
slowpoke! (:
HAHAHAHA!
* joking *
Went back to cp to walkwalk..
mrt-ed home (:
Overall, my holiday wasnt very fufilling..
Study was just not the mood of a holiday.
Just be yourself, be focused.
Make smart decisions and
think before you react, and
all the good stuff.
Just have fun.
You only live life once.
Make it to the fullest,
so you have to be sure
you make great decisions (:
Th family
Thursday, September 10, 2009 7:26 AM /
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the rcyndp 09! <3
9 August 2009 ..
The day I will remember and keep it close to my heart.
I still remember the day, as usual, my father sent me to HQ (: ...
I have been anticipating that day to come for so long..
I fell sick days before it and my cousins & family members were like
" Awww, train so hard, last day cannot march. "
I felt so useless although I knew they don't mean it.
We ate MAC breakfast, a treat from SIRS & MA'AMS. I didn't had much appetite then. The weather was also quite hot then as we sat on the rooftop level to eat.. (:
Bus-ed to Marina Bay. Ella & I were trying to make our last few moments together to the fullest. We were talking then i guess?
Went through security checks..
At F1 holding area, had lunch.
I forgot what lunch was.
Blahblah blahh, then it was trancuated run.
I skip those runs as I wasnt feeling well. Was resting for the final fun.
I saw the whole parade. Just love it so much (:
Its awesome!
Then went back for dinner. Around 3-4+ I guess?
Wasnt feeling well again. WeiLin ma'am helped me around.
Told me many things.
At that time, I didn't really want to go for the parade anymore as my body really don't feel well. I was kind of lack of motivation and courage. All i see was myself fainting and messing up the whole parade. I just have that fear.
During dinner. I got Grace and Ella, to keep my mind occupied from thinking of all these. I told myself positive things like " I can do it." " You be fine."
Nicky Sir decided not to put me in reserve and said that I will be going for the parade as i trained so hard for it. I was still scared then but I tell myself I was going to do my best.
A well rest for dinner, had that tense tingling hot feeling in me.
Calm down... ^^
Said cheers, I try to forget all my worries.
Just be happy.
Before the parade, during the parade, after the parade were moment I cannot forget them up till now. I remember Nicky Sir telling me on 10 of August. He said he made a big risk by letting me be in the parade and an even bigger risk by letting me stay at my original front row position. He said I did him proud on 9 of August.
The only things in life you regret, are the risks that you didnt take.
I think the ma'ams were like gambateh me, asking me to Jiayous in the parade.
JunJie sir was telling me that they believe I could do it and put in back into the contigent for the final run.
khairul Sir was out there giving out sweets. He apologised for forgetting to get me chewy sweets. Its okay :D
Alot of meaningful things were said to me. Somehow 1 of the sirs or ma'am, couldnt remembered knew that I had that fear feeling. I had to overcome that fear of mine for the last run. I really had to. Its the mentality. I am not going to screw up the parade.
Before the parade, my mind is starting to run wild again. Thanks friends for calming me down and told me many many positive things. Thanks for all the well wishes for the parade. I feel so happy that I had your even at that moment of my life. It made me felt that I was not alone, being the only one in the journey. Thanks for all the comfort and assurance. It was certainly so much better with you guys around.
Forming up for the parade, felt sick-ish again. I can't back out now that I am inside!
Once again, Got Firdaus to check my baret and everything. People were going around shaking hands wishing goodluck for the parade.
Soon, the policewomen were playing the instruments. It marks the start of the parade. The backstage were hyper, everyone was like " woahhhhhh.." Just making alot of noise. (:
Soon the marching song started. I smiled as I sang, I just want to forget all those fears and be positive. I know darling was there at the parade. That helps actually. (:
While standing, I kept humming songs in my head. I remember all the things people told me. The sms-es I received in the morning wishing me goodluck for the parade.
People telling me . " Laura, Jiayous"
" you can do it "
" we believe in you "
During the president inspection, I really wanted to fall out. I felt the coldness running through me. Eeekks! I kept telling myself " Jiayous, Laura you can do it! "
Perhaps you think this is lame, but thats what really kept me going. I hum the inspection song which was very grand and I like it. The train of thought of people believing in me also keeps running through my mind. I didnt want to dissapoint any of them.
They had so much belief in me. I couldnt let them down.
I could not.
I told myself to hang in there. After the inspection would be the shooting of the guns then finish le! I told myself its going to be over very soon. I told my body to just hang on there, don't fail me. I will let you rest after the parade.
Just as we were to march off i was feeling weak. I really wanted to fall out. My mind had many thoughts. I decided that I shouldnt fall-out and give up just like that.
Even so, I want to go all the way. Be it if I faint. At least that was what i meant by giving my best. I push myself to the limit.
As i march, i feel my strength getting weaker as i used more energy to move myself.
I told myself It was really going to end. I told my body, just 5 more mins, I promise you i will let you rest.
Thanks body for listening to me. While (check-up) that time, supposingly have to look at the president. My head was up but i was more of concentrating on the dressing and being well. I forget to look at president okay. So stupid. Then suddenly a thought came, " hey you have not look at president yet. " Oh yeah, I shift my eyes, got a glipse of president.
He looks kind of pissed. No offence thought. Maybe it was just a serious look he had.
As we were marching out of the parade, I told Firdaus that I am not feeling well.
At last, the parade has ended.
It was the toughest 45mins for me.
Its was the toughest parade of all parades I went through.
Now thinking back, I really don't know how I made it. The thought was scary. It was really very much on the mentality and the faith others had given me. Even a simple goodluck msg in the morning, it was all remember-ed.
I am quite glad I completed the parade. I never expect that I will do it.
Everyone plays a role in making me realise how much I can actually endure and going all the way. Thats giving 100% commitment. I went for all the parades at marina bay!
Though I never completed the 3.2km march as i fall out when nearing the end on preview ndp. Was giddy... head was spinning.
And i never march the city march on 9 of august either.
Once you fall, it is really hard to get up. It takes alot of effort and courage getting up.
I will train myself, to be fit for a 3.2 next time round!
After the whole parade ended on 9 aug. My legs were wobbly and warm.
I didnt want to walk anymore longer. I just wanted to lie down, close my eyes and sleep. I was very tired then.
Huiyi ma'am and Joanne ma'am were supporting the unbalance me.
I was resting on one of their shoulders as my eyes were just slightly close.
A sir came by me and told me not to close my eyes, never.
Once i close my eyes, I don't know what will happen to me.
( fainting )..
Sat on a stone rock like thingy for a very long time as medical aid is unable to come. I saw many fireworks. Everytime a firework came, Joanne ma'am will said thats for me.
Ma'ams said that everything happen for a reason.
Huiyi ma'am was telling me jokes.
Wilson sir gave me his mint sweets. Which i acutally dont like but still have to eat it. Or else sugar level will be low.!
After resting. Certainly felt much much better.
Ambulance brought me back to holding area.
Took my temperature, 37.7 I still remember,
They gave me a mask to put on.
Which I didnt really put on.
Wearing the mask was suffocating alright? Sorry doctor.
At medical post. They massage my legs with somewhat soothing cream and the orange juce drink once again.
The same old army first-aider.
He was like " Ey, why you look so familiar?"
I covered my face.
I came last week rmbr?
Of course he did remember.
He was a funny first-aider. Weirdo but nice nice (:
very assuring.
He said that he will be scared when girls cry so he told me not to when i was.
Overall, ndp was a great experience for me. It is wonderful. I never expect myself to do things I lost faith in. It made me a stronger person with a tougher mentality. I felt so much belief in me and it was a worthwhile journey. I knew I was never alone here. All the support, encouragements on the last day was very very much remembered. I feel the warmth of the redcross family and ndp as well. How much it really belongs to my heart.
I really want to thank all sirs and ma'ams and ndp friends. From the bottom of my heart, all you did for me was really appreciated.
Thank you very much. (:
It is possible to fail in many ways..
while to succeed is possible only in one way.
I love ndp O9 very much, a memory i will never forget.
93rd pooooost (:
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 6:53 PM /
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My 93rd pooooooooooost :)
its has been a long time since i have post.
I have yet to tag about my ndp experience which i will do it soon.
Now currently in com lab, free & easy time..
Have been sick for weeks,
physically weak..
but i have to be mentally strong to move on..
I don't know why im becoming like this..
Really need to eat more iron stuffs according to alvin.
Low blood pressure, that explains the giddiness in me for 3 weeks?
In a few days time it is gonna be for a month.. =x
Oh Jiaqi just told me it promotion this saturday (:
wo0tssss!
I hope to get some sort of high rank..
i meant the swo rank looks so grand..
+ the lanyard... !!!! (:
LOLS, its recess in 3mins,
Booo.
Byebye.
Just a random post to keep this blog living i guess?
smiles! (:
* reminders to ppl in 2e1..
bring ur congruency & proportion wksheeet!!
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